Am that type of girl

Am the type of girl that looks innocent but isn't. 

Am the type of girl that helps a lot but doesn't get anything back.

Am the type of girl that gets angry and annoyed at tiny stuff but doesn't mind when my friends do it. 

Am the type of girl who is stuck with family problems.

Am the type of  girl who likes to have fun moments.

Am the type who loves everybody but i don't show it.

Am the type of girl who is forgotten.

Am the type of girl who dreams fairytale and dreams about good things that won't come true.

Am the one that apologies for no reason.

Am the one who thinks negatively.

Am the one who has enough plates to think about. 

Am the one who worries a lot and suffers the consequences.

Am the one who is close minded beacause my thoughts may offend people or i rather not make a scene.

Am the type who is forgotten for good things but remembered for bad things.

Am the girl who is labeled the bad one whilst she is trying to hold the family up but can't do it alone.

Am the girl who wants to get good grades to make my parents proud. 

Am the girl who is dreaming of a beautiful fantasy world.

Am the girl who wants to make everyone smile. 

... Yh Am that Type of Girl, sweet innocent girl...

 

Broken pencil

i think an object that represents me is a pencil. What comes to your head when you think of a pencil? well, it undergoes painful sharpening, it makes mistake, you create knowledge and it breaks easily and i think it relates to me because i tend to hide all my feeling inside.i come as thin and colourful which represents every mood of mines. people will use me when they need me. when am upset i stand up like a blunt pencil that needs sharpening. (cheering) am not always broken because am mostly looked aftered by people. Am mostly used in art and maths which are my favourite subjects. Am like a shy pencil in a pencil case. some pencils have rubber on them to erase stuff like me i forgive and forget.

Today i am a broken pencil. "My people don't see the story of my sides and the person i hate will twist my words and they believe her but no consequences for her. Am sick of this game and i need some pause button. "my people" trapped in some next dimension not understanding todays problems. i have an opinion i am me why don't they hear me out before they label me the bad one? They don't try to understand my story so who do i go to? Do i really have anyone in this world to trust. My heart hasn't been ripped once but billion of times why don't they see that? Life has a lot of ups and downs but mines, Pufft! i know i had more downs and i hate life and i hate me. Am sick and tired of life. My mind is exploding with thoughts i never thought i'd imagaine. Am wishing this game would end soon but a whole new level it's just getting harder. In my life there's just tears not one day i had a big laugh or smile. i Have no life, i am - a broken Pencil.